But who’s counting? I am almost to the point of saying, “Ok, Jude can come anyday now!!” I’m not there yet. I have a few things I need to do…. like wash his clothes. I also need to order his co-sleeper sheets, buy some nursing pads and lanolin, pack a hospital bag, and he probably needs a few more long-sleeved onesies and pants sets…. hm. I also need to get a few more packs of diapers. I really wanted to do cloth diapers and hopefully I can in the future but right now it’s not in the finances. Just typing all of this gives me the urge to make a list! I really wanted to put away a few freezer meals and loaves of banana and pumpkin bread.. maybe some pancakes.. But that hasn’t happened yet either! Considering my ankles have doubled in size, getting the dishes loaded is about all I can do after cooking a meal. I’m just not sure making extra is going to make the list! I am not sure I have ever gotten that nesting bug like some pregnant women get. Although, this week I did dust the ceiling fans, which is rare… er, I mean, totally normal for me. 😉

Speaking of cleaning, I’ve been teaching the boys how to do a few extra chores, hoping this comes in handy when Jude arrives. Luke is learning to sweep and Eli loves to swiffer. Do they do it like I would? Absolutely not. But I figure, it will either not get done or they will do it at around 60%. I’m good with 60%… and they’ve got to get better as they learn, right? Last night Eli dusted for me and then Luke begged to dust something (!) so I let him dust the baseboards in the hallway. Score! They are also learning to sort laundry, move laundry from the dryer to the couch, fold towels, wipe down their bathroom counter/sink, empty trash cans and this coming week Luke wants to learn to mop! I had intended to teach him this weekend but we ran out of time and he’s begging me to teach him. How can I say no to that? Home Economics at it’s finest! We have a Shark Steam Mop, so mopping will be pretty easy for him. We’ve been working on chores for a while now, but having a baby in a few weeks has kind of given me greater motivation to stick with it! Their future wives will thank me someday!

Mentally and emotionally, I’m doing okay, much better than last week. I had some fear battling to do last week that left me in a cranky mood! I’ve been working on that and have some wonderful ladies praying for me as well! I’m so thankful! This week my goal is to work on my birth plan, make a list of Scriptures for me to meditate on during labor and work on a song play list as well. Oh and all of that stuff I mentioned before! And after this week I hope to be able to say, “Ok, I’m ready. He can come.” All of you ladies who have prepared for a baby out there know what I’m talking about. It’s nice to get to a place where you feel ready. Obviously a baby doesn’t care and they are going to come when they are ready… but mentally, it’s nice to feel ready. It relieves some of the stress of it all!

How do I feel physically, you ask? Well… I feel big. Really big. Jude is measuring (ie, my belly is measuring) normally but I feel ginormous. I just keep reminding myself that much of it is water weight and swelling… right? It was really easy for me to drop the weight with both of the boys… so I’m counting on that this time too! As I mentioned, my ankles are swelling nicely. It’s not comfortable but I know it could be worse. I’m having some low hip pain, which I’m guessing is my sciatic nerve. It really starts to bother me at the end of the day. I sometimes get to the point where it’s just better to not walk at all. At that time, putting weight on my right leg sends a stabbing pain. As long as I am able (pending schedule and how I feel), I am still walking. I think the past two weeks I managed to walk 3-4 times each week. At this stage, I feel pretty good about that. It kind of freaks me out thinking about how exhausted and worn out I feel and the fact that I have to work to get this baby out. I keep thinking… how? I can barely do much of anything at this point! How can I get this baby out!? But I know God will supply my needs. I’m trusting in His supernatural work! Not too much longer….

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

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