I am so loving that spring is here! We have been enjoying the sunshine and dirt! It seemed like a particularly long winter for us! I think the biggest part of that was that we had the sickest winter we’ve ever had as a family. It seemed to have no end! And literally, our last sickness was just 2 weeks ago. I am hopeful though, that with the spring comes renewed health for our family. So, what I really wanted to share was what I learned through those long weeks. I truly believe we have difficult seasons of life for a reason. Of course, this ‘season’ of ours doesn’t compare to the huge mountains many people I know are facing. But it also doesn’t negate the fact that God gave me lessons to share.

God is sovereign. He is sovereign over all, including our health. No matter how well I eat, how often I exercise, how much organic food I buy, God is in charge of my life and death. I cannot add one single day to my life that He has not ordained because I chose an organic salad over McDonalds. There is a huge balance that I’m trying to figure out here but God did use this recent season to give me some clarity. Sometimes I need to just relax, as to not offend anyone or make anyone feel ‘less than’. Sometimes, I need to just relax in Christ when my budget says I can’t buy quinoa pasta or organic celery (um, that’s pretty much all the time but I’ve just came to that realization!). I can just get the regular ol’ celery, be thankful for the food on my table and trust that God will use it to bless our bodies. Please don’t hear me wrong, I want to feed my family the best I can and I will. I just ordered 10 butchered free range chickens for goodness sake! But stressing out over my food choices and my food budget constantly isn’t doing my health any good. I wholeheartedly believe stress is more dangerous than what we eat. And we can certainly make anything an idol. Constantly stressing over food and consuming our life with the idea that if we don’t eat a certain way we are surely doomed is completely unhealthy. God is much more concerned with our heart than what’s on our plate. So, it’s a heart matter. And like I said, I’m not abandoning my belief that eating real food is the best for our bodies. I’m just trying to focus on my heart on the matter. I hope all of that is coming across the right way! 🙂

There is great comfort in reminding ourselves that God is in control, right? So the next part is really where God dealt the most with me personally in the season of sickness. I truly believe I was being disciplined. We (believers) don’t often talk about being disciplined. Maybe we’re embarrassed and don’t want to admit that God disciplines us? But let’s think this through. We are sinners. We mess up. And God’s word says He disciplines those He loves. It also says He disciplines His children. So, to me, there is actually comfort in His disciplining. We could pretend that He never disciplines us, but if that is actually true then maybe we aren’t His. I was slacking in a lot of areas in my walk with Christ. I had let the busyness of having three children cloud my focus. God used the sickness to show me where I had lost it. Does sickness always mean sin and discipline? No, I’m not saying that. But sometimes it does. I’m thankful for discipline. I have a Father who loves me enough to not leave me in my sin. He is so good.

 “It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline? If you are left without discipline, in which all have participated, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. Besides this, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we respected them. Shall we not much more be subject to the Father of spirits and live? For they disciplined us for a short time as it seemed best to them, but he disciplines us for our good, that we may share his holiness. For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.” Hebrews 12:7-14

My encouragement to you, seek the Lord during difficult seasons. Specifically ask Him so show you what you need to learn. Sin might not be the issue. But there is always a lesson. We can always grow nearer to God. We can always focus deeper on His truths.

 Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth. John 17:17